迷失

现在的我，感觉好迷失，像是很简单的东西，我都将它复杂化了，心里一直重复又重复的问自己，该继续还是结束。。。明明下定了决心，可是心里和嘴里却不一，三两句话后，心又乱了，决定又改变了，现在的我怎么了，以前的我可潇洒了，决定了的事谁也改变不了，可是，为何现在这么婆妈，为何现在这么柔弱，好讨厌，讨厌拖泥带水，讨厌自己拿不定主意，我该怎么办？理智和感性，要如何选择呢？

After busy life...

When people is free, they will start thinking non-sense... and this is happening on me now...After busy for visa, accommodation, flight, etc, suddenly I'm at a loss which way to turn now, and have nothing to do at home, a bit bored, and life is so flat now...When I m free, I would start imagining things, and now relationship came to my mind now, start thinking who will be my Mr. Right, start imagining things, and creating troubles for myself, I guess I am a silly person who always has silly mindset...Aii, think should get something to do, get a direction in my life, I should start learning my german now, shouldn't just waste my time here... but I am lazy...